Fake validation

You seek comfort in the acceptance of others, using it like a drug, always looking for your next hit. Always gauging how your behavior will affect the perception people have of you. The only real comfort you have or will ever feel is through producing results. The thing that you think you want is a byproduct of producing results. 

You use these little validation trophies you get along the way as an escape from the reality you have to endure to produce results. As soon as you stop doing this, and accept what needs to be done, what is required to produce results becomes clear and so much easier. 

Acceptance of what needs to be done makes it easier for you to simply do what you need to do, rather than seeking fake validation along the way. Then the only validation you will need is from the results that you are producing. If you wonder why you are so dissatisfied it's because the validation you feel now is hollow. It's all fake, until you get the only real validation there is, results.